Have you ever turned on a tap (faucet) only to find instead of a steady flow of water you get two dismal drips and no more. Well basically that is what happened to me except instead of water my energy ran dry.
It is a misnomer to think that healers and holistic practitioners never get sick or have health / emotional issues. They are a part of everyone’s journey in this world.
If you have noticed that I have been quiet on social media or on this website lately then this is the reason why. I ran out of oomph! Some people would call it burn out, but I prefer ‘ran out of oomph’. The good news is I got it back again and this is my very reason for sharing this very personal story if you are exhausted and not quite sure how to put one foot in front of the other and carry on with day to day life, just know that all things are transitory, but sometimes we have to do a little self work to gain our equilibrium once again.
I managed to get the flu Christmas 2024. It was the fluiest flu I had ever had. I wondered if it was my time to leave the earth, but if truth be told I had not been feeling myself for almost 3 years.
It was time for reflection. A relocation which was to be an amazing adventure (and parts of it were) left behind many folks who felt angry and upset at my absence. This coupled with some very interesting geopathic stress at my new home began my downward trajectory. During the 23 months at the house I had a crash course in underground water holding negative energy, elementals, the devic realms and a portal that no matter how often it was closed by us or other experts only stayed closed for a short time. An interesting place indeed it was, but that and the upset of leaving family and friends and the obvious and somewhat complicated moving stress started to make me ill. Arthritis attacks that caused migraines and a general feeling of low energy that spiralled downwards.
Fast forward to 18 months ago and an unplanned house move back to my home county of East Sussex so that I was able to support a family members who were going through a hellish time. They do say that house moving is one of the most stressful things that you can do, but it isn’t really the move itself it’s all that goes along with it. We did it and found a bungalow that whilst it wasn’t perfect it was the very best that budget would allow and a year of hard work and full renovation ensued. A few weeks after moving in, with a total rewire in full swing, all sorts of unexpected family turmoil took place. Clearly the universe knew where it wanted me to be!
It was like my energy reserves were slowly ebbing away. Every time I picked myself up and dusted myself off I seemed to get knocked down again and with such low energy I think this is why the flu hit me so hard. It has taken 3 months and a radical dietary change to get back to feeling better that I felt before.
In the early part of this year I kept asking why I couldn’t get over a flu virus after all I have many tools at my disposal that can help and many friends who are holistic therapists who can also help. It wasn’t until I acknowledged that the last 3 years had had a huge amount of life changes and stressful situations for me along with some of the most wonderful moments too of course, nothing is ever all bad! I acknowledged that perhaps it was perfectly understandable that my oomph had buggered off!
Here’s the clever bit and the point of my writing, when we acknowledge something we have taken the first steps towards healing it no matter what it is. From this point of recognition I was able to take my own counsel and knew I needed to take a step back from my healing work for a while because as the saying goes ‘you can’t pour from an empty pot’. Putting more focus on my art work allowed me to take the pressure off myself and create a clearer head space. This along with some dietary changes, and a few remedies and I began to feel myself returning.
Most of our physical illnesses have their root in an unprocessed emotion, but sometimes the cause isn’t always obvious at first. For example just before house move number one I tore the ligaments in both my ankles simultaneously. They remained painful for a very long time (2 years!) until I looked up the possible emotional relationship with ankles and saw the word ‘guilt’ it made perfect sense, the guilt of leaving loved ones behind had weighed heavily on me. Then came the acknowledgement, then the healing. Now my ankles are fixed, they began to heal very quickly after this acknowledgement! We are our own best healers, but sometimes it can be hard to know where to begin.
As of the beginning of April I am very happy to be back up and running with the healing and teaching side of my work and ready to welcome old and new clients and students.
